Worship...

I'm not sure if I've ever written about worship leading.

It is my heart's desire, the place I feel most at home, but also the most challenging.

I love music and I love expression through art. But worship is different, it has its own separate category of beauty.

There is something within me that rises, becomes stirred, but is also satisfied while in the presence of God.

A lot of people ask me what I want to be. And I never really knew for sure. Partly because I didn't know worship leading counted (haha). But also because I felt like it was not as called-for in the earth as perhaps a business owner, a pastor, a manager, or even a janitor.
But then I realized that it doesn't matter how great of a job I feel it is.
I want it - no, I need it.
I love seeking more of God, and diving into His unending mysteries, and then admiring it and thanking Him for such breathe-taking wonder.

Like I said, it is where I feel the most at home...where even problems with friends become pointless and solved naturally by the Spirit.
Everything seems to melt away, and I can honestly say it is where I am completely at peace.
It seems like every time I do worship is another mountaintop, and the valley below is the time in between each session...where I wait anxiously desiring to once again come before the throne of God in corporate love and adoration.

Worship is so much more than a song, a powerpoint projection, or a clap of the hands.

It is the secret garden-place where it's "You and me alone, God" (Misty Edwards).

I love worship.
I love Jesus.
If you love one, you love the other. :)