My friends are closer to me than my actual family. Go figure... Although, now that I think of it, I bet a lot of teenagers are like that, since they're in that rebellious stage of their lives. But I don't think it helps in my case that I have a stepmom. It's hard to be in the same house when she gets home and acts more excited to see her real daughter and her husband, but says little to her stepdaughter. Not to mention, her dog is the love of her life. I just wish she would love me. It doesn't seem like she does. At least I try. But I don't think she knows how hard it looks like shes trying, just to be friends with me.
I just wish we were closer. And I wish she wouldn't judge me so harshly. It's rather difficult.
AND...moving isn't going to help me in that aspect. My friends are here, I'll be there...with my family.
God, give me peace of mind. Heal relationships. And heal my attitude.
Life seems like a rollarcoaster sometimes, I'm up and down, constantly. I just wish I could be up all the time.
But then again, that's my decision. That's why I need your prayers on this subject.
Pray for unconditional love to grow between me and my stepmom.
In Christ,
aw
5.1.08
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