Hey...

Hey, it's a Monday. Yup...homework finished, and house is clean. It's such a great feeling to know that you've accomplished a lot.
I will have to make a few very important decisions coming up. I'm trying to not let overwhelment (a word?) set in...and my brain give out. That would not be good...lol.
But schooling is a big issue...or it seems like one. Moving to a different state affects a lot..especially when you have roots. One of the key issues is what to do as far as an education goes. Do I continue High School? Do I consider homestudies? What about getting a proficiency test? Maybe CLEP....?
But before I make a decision, I have a lot of things I must do. I need to do some research on each thing, studying the pros and cons and looking at what is important or not. Prayer is also a big thing I need to do. I want to please God in all I do...but it's hard sometimes when I'm just not sure which decision to make. I don't know what to do, and I'm having a hard time starting the process of deciding. I have people left and right tugging me in different directions, and now I don't even know what I want anymore.
I think my prayer is just that God will give me chances to slow down. I need to take some GOOD thought on the subject...and decide what is in my heart.
I love my friends. SOOO much. They all want me to stay, but I'm not sure it's the best choice. Moving would give me so many opportunities including not having to worry about being close to friends (lol), taking classes that only they are in, so I'm not alone. I can do pretty much whatever I feel led to do. My slate will be clean, and I'll basically be free to make some major schedule-changing decisions.
I could make time for my music. I could take guitar classes to improve my knowledge. I could even write more, making those skills a little more tuned.
Our house is beautiful. It is still being built, but we know the floor plan and have seen a model of it.
However, the real thing I'm dreading, I think, is the whole friends side of it. I mean, my parents have been there so many more times that I have, and they are very acquanted with many of the people there. They (especially Dad) would have a great time, knowing all their co-workers, doing whatever. But I know nobody. And you can't build lifelong relationships after you've had some already for about 10-12 years. I've always had girls to talk to, and people to be myself around. I keep thinking I won't be able to do that there. I'll have to put up a face for awhile until I get acquanted with people enough. I'm social, but it's still difficult for me to relate with people, especially when I'm already a nerd at the school I currently go to. I just hope God puts some awesome relationships in place once we get there, so I'll have stuff to do on Friday nights:)
I just don't want to be alone...


Please pray for peace of mind.
Love,
aw